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continued of chapter 1
written on Thursday, October 05, 2006 @ 6:49:00 PM ✈
I watched her take step closer to the ledge with every passing moment, gazing skywards. "NO!" i screamed. Trembling, she turned to face me directly. I noticed that she had apair of yellow shades resting upone her aquiline nose. Her eyes were large and round, expressing nothing but shock. Her rose-bud lips were shaped into an"O" as she gasped in surprise. WOW! She sure was beautiful. Tears were falling copiously from her swollen eyes. "whu are you?" she asked, her voice as sweet as she looked. Her question left a big question mark on my mind. How should i answer? Was i surpposed to say my name, or just tell her that i was a mere passerby? "My name is Alan Nah. i'm just passing by." i said both "What do u want?" her voice was now shrill. "what do you want?" i shot back. Interesting. She glanced at me for a long time, expecting me to answer my own question. Then, with a sweep of her hands, she shrieked,"Go away!" "i won't. i'd never leave a girl to die like this." She inhale deeply and then froze, and for a moment i thought she going to explode. "What do you want? What?" she repeated, apparently confused. I inched forward. "Let me help " i offered, lifting my hands up. "No.....You won't understand." She cupped her face with hands and wailed. Then, without any warning, she repeated loudly, "You won't understand!" "If you don't even try, how would you know?" I fought an internal battle to stay calm. The worst thing that couldhappen now was to see tha girl jump off right before my eyes. "No one can help me." "That's because you refuse to let others help you." i insisted, my tone was so serious that even i was surprised. "If you're willing to let others help you, there is hope yet.Trust me." An anxious silence ensued. "You're a student?" she suddenly asked, giving me the once-over. Althought i was not wearing my scholl uniform, my boyish looks was a dead giveaway. I toook one more step forward. "Yes. From JC. Boon Lay Junior College." To buy time, "You? A student too?" "No," she said simply, unaware that i had taken another step forward. " I see..." My mind searched for a question to distract her. One more step. "So how old are you?" Ah shit! Girls hated people to ask about their age... But it was too late! the words had already been spoken. With a tinge of playfulness, she replied curtly, "Don't you know a woman's age is always a secert?" Without her knowing, another step had been taken. Two more steps, and i would be standing close to her. "I'm sorry." I apologised sheepishly and asked, "So you're working?" I realised that she had stopped crying. "No," she replied nonchalantly. One more step " I see." With lightning-quick speed, I grabbed her arms. As expected, she struggled to break free from my grasp. But her strenght was no match for my will power to control her. "Let me help !" I commanded as loudly as i could. She stopped struggling as her eyes closed in on mine. "Who do you think you are? You really think you can help?" "Look!I've taken a lot of steps to reach you.And i'm not letting you go unless you accept my help." She started sobbing again. Just as i fumbled for handkerchief, she lurch forward to hug me all of a sudden. We sat at Kopi Nuts' Hut in silence. She never said anything. I said nothing as well. Occasionally,I stole peeks at her. Without a word, she stood up headed for the counter. Kopi Nuts' Hut... I have never had coffee there before that fateful day. The ones at the nearby coffeeshop costs only sisty cents, and i buy them only if i am really exhausted. Within minutes, she was back with a plastic cup in each hand. She swayed unsteadily and looked as if she was going to overturn one over me. "Just kidding!" she bellowed, as she sat down with her cup. I stirred my cup of coffee, toying iwth the whipped cream at the top. In between sips, she continued softly, " You've changed my thinking." Actually i still had the burning question: why does she want to commit suicide? She looks so pretty, so healthy.. what could have driven her to the edge? As if sensing my thoughts, she shook her head vehemently. "Don't ask me why, okay?" "I didn't ask." I muttered, taking my first gulp of my drink. Man, that wa the first time i tasted coffee with straw, and the coffee was incredibly cold. "22." "What?" i gasped, taken aback by the cold coffee. "My age." she clarified, and then added, "How about you?" I shrugged and mumbled, "17, but 18 soon." I was wearing my uniform. There was no way i could lie. "Which schoo; are you from, again?" she asked with raised brows "Boon Lay JC."i answered with pride. "It's close by." She nodded,and then tossed her head from side to side as is she was trying to figure out something. I started scanning the crowd at the shopping complex, wondering if i would come across any familiar faces. How was i going to answer if i got caught hanging out with this pretty babe alone? Rumours would spread like wild fire in my class, before raging on through the entire school. "I see. You look and talk pretty mature." I blushed, taking it as a compliment. There was nothing much to add.I did not know what to add, and neither did she. We continued drinking in silence, each eyeing the surroundings and trying not to make eye contact. Aren't you going to ask me anything about me?" she remarked out of the blue. " I don't think you would say anything." She chuckled. " i won'tsay why i wanted to fly off like Supergirl, but i didn't say i won't say anything else." Girl are so strange: Fifteen minutes ago she was this girl crying her heart out, ready to meet her doom. Now, she could joke anout it like it was no big deal. "Well,erm..." I began with the basics, "What 's yr name?" "Destiny.Destiny Wu." she answered." You're Alan, right? I remember your name." "Yep, Alan Nah." While I picked my brains for the next question, she cut in. "So what are you doing at the roof?" "I...erm...I was just passing by." I stammered, wondering if it sounded weird. She laughed out loud. " Passing by the roof? Hmm.... So you're just out of the school?" I nodded. "JC.......Hmmm....I used to... but well, i quit after my first year." she declared as she waited for my response. I just kept quiet. "Ask me why I quit school!" she commanded me. "Okay, why did u quit schoool?" i obeyed. just like a dog. " Because I have no future. Denstiny has written my life." "What?" She shook her head, pushing her empty cup away. "You'll never understand." She was the strangest person i had eber encountered. I frozed, not knowing whatto do. So, I decided to divert my attention to passing crowd. " Looking for your girlfriend?" she teased. "I've got no girlfriend!" i protested. "I've got no boyfriend as well." She answered quickly. Now i was getting more interested "Why?" I asked alittle too eagerly. " Because, as i said destiny has written my life." I wondered if she expected me to derive a conclusion somhow. I had no ideal what she was hinting at. " I see." I stirred my coffee while considering what to say. "Why aren't you working now? Can't find a job?" i changed the subject. "Because destiny doesn't allow me to." Dame it! She was freaking me out with her destiny talk. Once again, I was too lazy to solve the puzzle. So, I just nodded with a plite smile. "Do you believe in destiny?" she asked meekly. "I believe we write our own destiny." i said dryli. She hung her head low, as if she was trying to disgest my answer. "Hey, Alan, thank for everything." This time i could feel the sincerity in her voice. "You're a nice huy." With that, she stood up. "I'd better be going. Study hard." I nodded in compliance. She walked off, leaving me alone in the cafe. As i watched her disappear into distance, I was devoured by this intense feeling... It is that feeling that eats into you when you miss someone. Was i missing her? Bullshit! She was just a girl I barely knew. A much older one, at that. To make matter worse, she was jobless! Impossible! It was until I lay in bed that night then I realised her image still huanted my mind. I did miss her after all. toooo be continued..... 0 comment[s] | back to top |